My fingers refuse to type anything sane.. my mind declines any rational thought..it refuses to acknowledge the fact that I am supposed to complete my work on time. My mind refuses to brew any questions that I am expected to script. Why? A little exhausted mentally and this entire slow phase is making me ashamed of my own speed at work. A victim of my own speed!! Thats probably the right thing to say.
Strangely enough, I generally real fast. At least thats what my peers and seniors have time and again told me. But then today, something is really wrong. Having completed a considerable amount, I feel lost. Lost in a huge gamut of emptiness.. in the nothingness of the void. Wondering how I would return from this reverie to the stark reality of work.
Just a thought, I havent really taken a holiday ever since I have started working..thats after I completed college. Guess I desperately need one!
Thursday, March 20, 2008
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Surprised with myself
Yeah.. thats what it is! I am very surprised and amazed with myself. I was kind of irritated with my brother for being influenced by this movie titled Into the Wild just because it deals with an unconventional subject. Its about this guy Chris McCandless who gives up all that he had, a well to do life just for the heck of it and goes bagpacking to Alaska. He was probably a lot influenced by a few writers of the likes of Jack London and Leo Tolstoy. 2 years of wandering in the wild comes to an end with him dying due to starvation. But at the same time, he lives his life to the fullest doing all that he wanted to during the period of 2 years. And guess what.. something thats stranger is the fact that I ve kind of started adoring what he did. I am tired of living a normal and monotonous life. I so very want to break free from the shackles of the societal and family bindings that I live within. Or as my boss puts it "I apparently have lot of rage within me" which I definitely agree and want to give a vent to! Just dont know what I am writing at this moment or for that matter whats going on in my mind. Wish I knew...
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